what I miss about high school

that I can't wait to give my best friend an update or ask her advice urge and know just the person to reach out to.

Today I heard a diagnosis for my youngest son that scared and made me really sad. Nothing as scary as cancer but I knew it was just the beginning of a long journey.

verbal apraxia.

as any concerned mama bear would do, I immediated googled the term. woah. lots of information. Some were conforting and some scared me even more. Basically a nuerological defect that prevents someone from verbally communicating what they want to say.

And then I wanted to talk to a girlfriend. The kind of best friend from high school. That you could just pick up the phone and dive right into the thick of matters.

back then everyone had the time to talk. and talk. and talk. Now everyone is busy. Can you remember the last time you spoke to one girlfriend several times a day, every day?

now I'm not suggesting I would like to go back to talking for 5 hours a day. But I sure miss that closeness.

I have a lot of girlfriends. Some have kids and are busy, busy. Some don't have kids so hard to talk about kids stuff. Some are great for grabbing some cocktails. But I can't remember the last time I cried on teh phone with a girlfriend. oh wait. when my dad died and I walked out of the hospital to call my old, egyptian friend.

why not talk to your husband. I will. It's just a different kind of conversation.

so on Jan 22, 2010 I finally have my new years resolutions.
1. Understand and commit to finding help for my son
2. Find that high school girlfriend person again

but before I have a glass of champagne, I'm going to give Robert a big, long hug